What My Crazy Mind Tells Me.

I’m not afraid of growing up. That’s like being afraid of the leaves falling off the trees in September, or the sun going down at the end of every day. What I’m really afraid of is how much more everything seems to mean when we’re older. Love can no longer be described in a sentence, friends are a thousand times more important than they ever were, and we are constantly haunted by the fact that no matter how hard we try to ignore it, the decisions we make today can stay with us forever.

A Sad Truth.

Some days are better than others. And by “others” I mean that some days are absolutely horrible. The ones where you wish whatever changed in your life to make you feel so awful was back to the way it used to be. This is why we need to take advantage of each and every good day. Smile when the sun shines down on you and laugh when you are in a happy place. Those are the best days, and you will miss them now and then when the bads ones come around.

A cover I felt like doing :)

My Favorite Kind of Scared.

I have a favorite kind of scared. Most of the time fear is an unpleasant feeling, because it’s unsettling when we’re wondering if an outcome will go wrong. There is one time, though, when this fear is more than that. It’s a hand shaking, heart wrenching feeling that drives you out of your mind. It’s the kind of scared you get deep in your core that’s strong enough to make you realize even if the outcome is not what you hope it will be, at least you got a chance to feel something that real. It’s the kind of scared that proves the very reason why we are all here in the first place. It’s the kind of scared that changes the way you’ll think forever, because once you feel the excitement of this fear you won’t ever be able to shake it off. It’s the kind of scared you get when you’re falling in love.  

I wrote this yesterday for my boyfriend’s birthday.. :)

I write songs every single day. It’s my favorite thing in the world. This is one I wrote a few months ago about my Dad, and it’s probably the most honest song I could ever write. He means the world to me. Visit my youtube for more! :)

http://youtube.com/taylorfan87

Mistakes.

I’ve recently learned how important it is to make mistakes. It really seems strange, but a lot of times we learn more by making the wrong choice rather than the right one. I know that some wrong choices are a lot better than others, and certain mistakes should really never be made at all, but sometimes there are these tiny little mistakes that seem to make a big difference. I’ve always pressured myself to make good decisions, and I know that is something I’ll always do, but it’s kind of nice to know that even if I mess up every now and then it just might lead me in the right direction when it’s all said and done.

Stay.

I feel so comforted by the fact that people choose to stay in my life. Family is expected to stay, it’s pretty much a given. But every now and then you meet those people who make it their own personal decision to stay. The kind of people that want to stick around for while because they like staying. That makes me happy, because that means they see enough good in me to want to be close by. Even if they can’t stay forever, they still make an effort to get there.

Love.

There are so many things to be afraid of. It seems like you can’t really be too sure of anything anymore. Things that used to be so simple years ago are now too difficult. You never know what lies ahead, who is going to walk into your life and who is going to disappear, or what kind of situations you will run into when you wake up in the morning. There are so many curve balls waiting to be thrown at you that you can’t even assume anything at all. Love as many things as you possibly can. Love each and every day you are given, and the people that you are so lucky to have around you. Never miss a single opportunity to love anything or anyone. It will be your biggest regret.

I don’t care.

I don’t care what people think of you. If they think you are weird, or shy, or too loud, or too annoying. I don’t think I would even care if everyone else in the world hated you. I don’t care if people think you aren’t right for me or if they think you aren’t good enough for me. The truth is, people don’t really know much of anything at all when it comes to judgement. That’s why it’s called judging. They don’t have enough information to come up with the facts, so they have to guess. When I am with you I am completely happy. I don’t have a care in the world. Everything else goes blurry around me because I’m next to you. So all the people out there that think I shouldn’t be with you, or think I could be happier… well they’re wrong.